Dark Night of the Soul

Depression sucks when it lasts for weeks on end and seems infinitely unbearable when you begin to feel suicidal. This throwback from Shai Linne always helps me to get my head on straight.

Intro:
Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in distress; My life is spent
with sorrow and my years with sighing; my strength fails because
of my iniquity, and my bones waste away” (Psalm 31: 9a, 10)

Hook:
Something evil lies within
I don’t know if this night will end
I’m wondering if the sun will rise again
Dark night of the soul

I can’t deal with this on my own
I’ve never felt so far from home
How can this be? It’s like I’m all alone
Dark night of the soul

Verse 1

I’m feeling worthless- On some “I don’t know what’s the purpose”
And most stay on the surface telling me “Enjoy life”
But I can’t unwind and embrace it
Thinking of all the time that I’ve wasted
All the forbidden wine that I’ve tasted
Can I speak with candid speech? This man’s weak
A stranded sheep who pants and weeps- I can’t sleep
I’m surrounded by His lens- I feel like asking for death
Because I’m drowning in my sins and I’m gasping for breath
It’s all real as it gets, every night my pillow is wet
Looking for God’s face but barely see His silhouette
A dry hour in my well of hope
The Lord feels so far away I couldn’t see Him with a high powered telescope
Asking Him to be nearer, but the sad fact couldn’t be clearer
My greatest enemy is looking back at me in the mirror
A hard sight to behold
My heart’s not right; spark the light to ignite this dark night of my soul

Hook:
Something evil lies within
I don’t know if this night will end
I’m wondering if the sun will rise again
Dark night of the soul

I can’t deal with this on my own
I’ve never felt so far from home
How can this be? It’s like I’m all alone
Dark night of the soul

Verse 2
I feel naked and stranded, forsaken and abandoned
I’ve taken God for granted by breaking His commandments
It’s obvious I’m losing my hope
Because I’m thinking “Who should I quote in my suicide note?”
I’ve been crushed into grains of pebbles
I’m ashamed that I’m a rebel and I can’t even blame it on the devil
I’m a vile man for real- chained to my pride
And my smile can’t conceal the pain that’s inside
Because His hand is heavy on me; Man this weather’s stormy!
My soul needs refuge; I know my debt’s huge
I’m needy and thirsty- diseased and teary-eyed
Lord, please hear my cries because I’m pleading for mercy
I need you to heal me of my brokenness!
Show me a sign of Your favor and seal it with a holy kiss!
It all seemed lost, then I took another look at the cross and
Saw again that the Lord is my portion